Confessions Of a Beauty Freak

I was once told how can you expect to start the next chapter of your life if you keep reading the previous one.. is this true?

i find myself going over things that have happened, that haven’t been good in my life and trying to make things better - is that just like reading a bad book that you’ve already read hoping this time it’ll turn out better?

somehow i’m not sure at this current moment in time i feel like my lifes novel won’t be very appealing however i’m not complaining - it wastes too much time and energy.

So guy’s odd start to todays blog huh? well i apologise .. it’s been an odd day haha.. tomorrow is saturday which means its  my first ever make-up gig and with my earnings i have decided i either want another piercing or i’m going to bleach the shit outta my hair and dye it another colour mwahahah what do you think?? (right now my hair is a faded purple colour)

Either way i’m nervous it’ll be my first proper time with a client which worries me a little, i just hope my technique is good and they like my work :)

Well it’s nap time so i’ll write again soon :) HUGS!

Well guys i now have my first gig coming up in less than two weeks - my first paying gig that is, my cousin is arranging to have her friends makeup done for her birthday party.. that’s where i come in haha :)

so i have no idea what im gonna be doing an its times like these where money is deffo an issue seen as i have no current source of income.. even though from this gig i’ll make an even £20 for both girls.

i did have a photo shoot arranged a while ago for a local band, however man flu took over and they cancelled - dissappointed just wasn’t the word, im nervous for this gig as it will be my first and i want to be as proffessional as possible for when the time comes around…

PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE!!! :)

You would have thought that with my cat keeping me up all night i would have been able to atleast have a nap this afternoon, well guy’s think again.. my asthma has decided to be a pain in the backside and my chest is tightening to the point where sleeping is impossible however i think i have come to a new revelation…

As we all know being beautiful in 2012 has certain rules you have to be: thin with big boobs and a fairly decent arse. Tv shows like “how to look good naked” and “10 years younger” are designed to make woman who quite frankly hate themselves feel beautiful from size 8 to 18 and although we all know that 1 gay man and a shopping trip wont make you feel beautiful it can sure bloody help! haha

I myself have had problems with my weight and currently am a size 18 and i’ll happily jump on the band wagon and say that i hate how i look even though my passion for cosmetics and makeup is helping a lot and it’s what helps me strive to make my dreams come true ..

I think i’m going to write a wish list for when i get my first sum of money from college so i can go on a shopping trip to get things so i can  dress for my size, build my makeup kit and make my dream come true :)

BIG CAN BE BEAUTIFUL! <3 

So, i never thought about ever writing a blog - not seeing the joy in it, however i think theres something i could find very enjoyable about writing down my thoughts and showin them to all you guys haha.

 as it says in my “about me” section i’m an aspiring makeup artist and in september i start my level 2 beauty diploma.. currently i’m a free lanced makeup artist despite the lagging of work… this is a little addiction of mine and hopefully in the future i could open my own spa show off my talent to the world haha!

for now i’m looking forward to college and i’m planning on building on my makeup kit - side note i hate motorbikes, some guy is just revving the engine in my street grr anyhoo so yeah thats whats happening and i’m looking forward to having a new found freedom …. as well as the shopping haha :)

anyway i best go wash my hair i’ll tippy tap again soon :)